One more

You missed it. Boohoo.

One. Uno. Alas. Isa.

The stroke of a genius. ; ) 

What has taken over her

It ain't no secret.

I talk of metaphors, of contradictions, and of complex things.

Meaning.

That.

Is.

All I am.

Missing.

and

You.

She's crying in the center of a circle she made with her own blood. Though she weeps, she feels safe inside it. The night tears her heart with the silence abruptly blessed on the solid ground she's on. Morose and cynical, she hums her heart song. To you. Can you hear?

How is she suppose to know? Did she felt she miss a chance of real love? No. and. Yes. With you. and. With him. She's been told and pushed away and wanted and bothered. She got shut down. She lost count already. 1.. 2.. a dozen more times in her lifetime. and she's prepared to take in more.

Let her be. Wonderful as she may seem, the smile she puts on for you and you and you.. deep inside, a voice tells her that she has to prove yet her worth. All of her time is offered just to affirm herself and others that she is good enough.

She is good enough. Tell her that. She is.

Get off my case

I wish for a man who would whip me off my feet and hug me tight, taking me away from you. 

"Back off.. she's mine!"

And then soundtrack of Robocop's play at the background. Lol.

Nah. YeaButNa. (sabi nga ni Teenuh). Kidding aside, the feeling is giving me so much pain down my throat, i almost cry every second I thought of it. And every second I feel that that scenario is so far fetch. getting further and further away. 

 To make my life easier, would you just get off my case? For good? Thank you.

Supernova

08.07.07 2.18pm 

The warmth struck my heart. Anonymously you touched this single soul. You made me feel that I was something else. Unknowingly and despite the present circumstances, you taught me something others have been trying to instill in my system. There are days when I call it scary. And there are few moments when paranoia gets the best of me. But at the same time, you helped me grow, stronger, even with the bitterness you left me with in the past.

And here you are again. Marching in with that smile you are infamously known. And I am guessing that it's as if fate has lead us back here, back to where we have left off. A chance to take? Or let things remain as a lesson learned for both sides? Whatever. The pain itches inside me that I do want to believe that we are lead back here to this path we're standing. Telling us that we are bound to cruise it together.

Just a thought of considering "You and Me" may work this time. And this time, may we lead a better one.

And if fate takes us apart again.. I'll just look back at this moment, wait and believe that it can still bring us back together. Again. Just like this. =)

My Secret World

Since I have learned that he has been reading my blogs.. prolly i'll be putting blogs related to him in this abode. My secret world for the rants I have for men who suck. Even bitches who waste my time. Sorry i.ph.. but having 2-4 blogs all at the same time is going crazy. Might as well categorize where I write entries for ranting, self musing, twisted minds, and sweet sweet love.

So yeah. I don't think he'll trace this blog. Great. It feels nice to be lonely and in my own secret place. I miss Tagaytay.

How are you doing?