Mild Depression: Welcome Back.

What?

C.M.D.… Welcome back to my life!

How long have you been out? A month or so? Great. I missed you. How was your vacation? I'm glad that you're back. People can't seem to believe that I'm such an optimistic person lately. It's like I don't really exist for that moment. So let me hug you and kiss you as I welcome you back in my life. .. So I can be me again.

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 "Surprisingly, people with mild depression are actually more tuned into the feelings of others than those who aren't depressed, a team of Queen's psychologists has discovered."

"To explain the apparent discrepancy between those with mild and clinical depression, the researchers suggest that becoming mildly depressed (dysphoric) can heighten concern about your surroundings. "People with mild levels of depression may initially experience feelings of helplessness, and a desire to regain control of their social world," says Dr. Harkness. "They might be specially motivated to scan their environment in a very detailed way, to find subtle social cues indicating what others are thinking and feeling." "

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I want the phantasms to stop. I want the pulse to end. I want nothing. I want end.

It’s suppose to be like this

Empedocles predicts:

To the elements it came from

Everything will return.

Our bodies to earth,

Our blood to water,

Heat to fire,

Breath to air.

FT Dilemma

Sheeesh. I want pizza. subra. Mahn. Buy me please? pretty please? =(

this is getting me so upset and sad. Yeah, yeah. I know.

I can't believe you're back. Great. 

Shortage in the Switch

I am still turned off.

I think I'll get out of here. Fast to the middle of nowhere.

I'm sorry. I did not mean to get you or anyone worried. I was only looking for sensible talks with someone I have confidence with. You. I can't get enough of you.

Shit. I still can smell it. Really. 

it’ll be over

"It will be over before you know it hehe" -Mhac

"It takes time my friend.. but you have to try ok. Help yourself." -Don

One year and a half isn't long enough pa ba? Tama na. Gising! Let go na? I can't seem to let this part of my life away. It pisses me off. Sobra. That time isn't enough at all to give it a closure.

It all comes down to this.. Because I am not enough. Sheeesh. What else? Im so stupid. What the fuck am I thinking?

Talking to the person is out of the question. Giving myself a "Me Time" is just me drinking, fucking around, and prolly wasting my time toxicating my body with different poisons I haven't tried yet. Hay what can I say, you got me caught up in your spell? I might give you a ring some time. Maybe. But before then, I am trying to stay away.