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mon seulement souhait

Sunday, November 12, 2006

i closed my eyes. brain is so slow paced. heart burns every other 5 minutes.

the time is right.. to forget about us. it's been so long, and it will be tonight.

mon seulement souhait: i hope the pain faded away with you.

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detoxify me

i need a detox NOW! seriously.

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one week straight, my face…

Saturday, November 4, 2006

one week straight, my face cant stare up straight without freaking out and laughing at anybody or anything at all. why? been drunk all week.. not even yet sober from the night before.. i find myself reaching out for my next shot.

i'm like this crazy kid already. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5P6UU6m3cqk

and i just want to rest. stop everything. from every working single brain cell to the least pain i'm worrying in my heart. just want to forget it and sing "brighter than sunshine" for just a minute or so. try to feel my fast paced heartbeat, and knowing for real that it beats only for me. just this time.

"here i am just expecting a little bit from you, too much from me. and nothing really matters now cause you will never see me again." that's how much bitterness there is inside me. my brain tries to stomp itself to eternal damnation for thinking about something my friends say "unworthy" or which they also say im "better off". there's too much of "kix/chix/c stuffs" that are going to take years, or at least a few more months of therapy. and i mean not just by hooking up with another guy. one therapy that will lead all those stuffs into the dead end part of my life. with a sign "never to disturb ever again."

by monday, all of these SHOULD be away from my mind. no more drinking. no more entertaining of such thoughts. start to fix things up. not with them. but myself.

*sigh* this song continues to seeps out of my brain..

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

- How to Save a Life, The Fray
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Light a Million Candles

Thursday, November 2, 2006

Spread the love for children all around the world. even over the internet.

Let us support and light a candle to stop child abuse and child pornography.

Light a candle —->> http://lightamillioncandles.com

They don't need your money, they need your support. =)

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